Land of Cuddles and Snuggles~! ♥ (Mostly)

Monday evening, the night had begun to fall down upon the land, dusk looming like fog in the distance, scattered rays of a bleeding sun scrape across the darkening sky like a fan of knives. Krissy did that night what he does every night: Boot up the computer and log into video games. A few matches of Town of Salem, seeking to lie and deceive the other players in order to lynch his target, or slaughter the Town members, or eradicate the Mafia and Serial Killers in the game. Wit and strategic planning, which never existed: Everyone was bloodthirsty. Yet through all of the cheerful dispositions, all of the laughs provided in communities online, all the smirks and humour made at work, Krissy was never satisfied enough. He was lonely, afraid of going out to meet someone, forever stuck in a vicious cycle of desiring something he lacks the strength to find for himself. Deciding to play some Republic side characters on Star Wars: The Old Republic, coveting the Legendary status for his Acco...

So, last night was both nice and a little sad. Why? Sad first. It was a little sad only because wonderful people I interact with have significant others, and I see them with their beloved and smile at their joy, congratulations for finding love. The sadness comes from envy. I do not have that, and I truly wish I did. The thought of everyone else being happy around me except for myself is certainly disheartening to say the least. Yet true to my nature, I would let it slide and focus on the fact that dear friends around me are happily intoxicated, writhing in love's tender grasp. And then it turns nice. It also turns nice because I had a gay dream last night and it made me smile waking up, before I suddenly felt ill for no apparent reason. Morning drowsiness, I would hazard a guess at. The dream began with me playing my games, a few Rainbow Six: Siege matches, some Star Wars: The Old Republic roleplay. I decide to call it quits, a knock on the front door suddenly resonates....