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WHAT IS THIS WEEK?

So... This week has been pretty homo-erotic for me. Why? I shall tell you, dear Readers! My work colleagues at the beginning of the week have been surprised by my shoe size (17 UK. The average is roughly 9-10), so I have large feet. There is an old proverb that the size of one's foot is an indication of genital endowment, so the larger the feet, the bigger the penis. Flattering thought! So they've been imagining my manhood which is nice because nobody really has done that to my knowledge. But it's far from over! Two in particular, three in fact seem to enjoy touching me, be it on my nipples or squeezing my posterior for whatever reason. As of late they've started playfully trying to grab my crotch and even hugging me from behind only to thrust their pelvis into my backside. Now, I don't dislike it because I like the attention, it is nice to be wanted... It does however come (No pun intended) with a few distracting cons. Namely, I keep thinking of supe

Nice dreams are nice. ♥

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So as the title suggests, I had a rather curious and sensual dream recently. The scenario is extremely unlikely to happen as it did in my head, as are most musings of this little Teddy Bear, yet my head-canon tells me that life is dull and full of poop, so I imagine awesome stuff to counter-act this world and it's woes. The scene is thus: I was invited to a "Guy's Night Out" with fellow co-workers, some of which I don't particularly consider friends. In truth I consider none of them friends, they are co-workers. Some of them I get along with, some I even play Xbox One online with, but I cannot call them friends. Anyway, we all order our drinks and chat at the table. One of us notices a Karaoke machine and while everyone else is slightly tipsy/on the road to drunk, I was not and I retained my senses. A rather cute guy is currently performing on the Karaoke machine and rather well I must admit, hitting each note to a pleasant degree without any notable

I'm still alive!

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Almost forgot I had this blog. That didn't take long! Hmm... There's a song here about God and Satan having Poker and Chess matches for the protection/theft of Human souls. Listen to it. That is all for now... Snuggles and cute things will come in time... In time... Pretty brain dead right now.

I love a rainy night~

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♥ I got home from work feeling bubbly as Hell and it started raining so, here! ♥ Heavens weep a cascading veil, Downpour, eternal and relentless, Out in the streets emits a wail, One of the wind that seeks to bless. Punishing the glass of the window, Shrouding the skies in black and blue, A benevolence can be seen in the gloomy glow, Heard in every strike of the soaked grass, right on cue. Like Eddie Rabbit, I love a rainy night, Weather often mistaken for despair, I see haunting beauty and delight, In every droplet that falls down with care. Crescendo of the water's descent, The casting shadow of a darkened cloud, As firm and absolute as cement, It remains a happy sight, speak it aloud! I love a rainy night~

People stuff and things!

I had a rather curious discussion, albeit a brief one about selfishness recently. About how potentially the most selfish thing you can do is to do something for another. I disagree with this statement. A selfish person serves their own self-interests, they do not care about another person's well being, they do not care about the state of another's property or lifestyle, they do not care about anybody except themselves because they are the centre of the Universe. That is at least, the extreme end of the spectrum. The other end is the pure Altruist, who will unhealthily sacrifice their own well-being for others because it makes them feel good and happy and genuine. Sounds nice in principle, but think about it for a moment. What kind of a life do you live if you do only what others want or seek? What kind of a person does it make you? To me? A bit of a silly one. Selfishness is human nature, human beings are prone to feelings of greed and envy even if only slightly, perc

Because why not?

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Happy days, sad days, glorious days, crappy days, Streaming fails, lying websites, sneaky fees online, A part of me wishes to ignite the Internet, what a blaze, Just imagine as we feast on charred Internet, sounds fine! Snuggles, cuddles, pillow, puppy, teddy bear and more, It's the little things in life that piss you off the most, I don't know why nor do I care, just nuzzle and adore, The company of those you enjoy, or eat some jam & toast. I don't even know what I'm writing, it's just random stuff, Making it up as I go along, who doesn't do that though? Such is my approach to life, but I don't think nearly enough, Guess I can do what Elsa keeps singing about: Let it Go. I'm anxious as Hell, scared of loud noises, people and change, Yet some changes I'd like to have, such as someone to hug, Someone to accept all of my flaws, though this is out of range, Fleeting desires tha

Close to the Edge: A BDSM Story ♥

Monday evening, the night had begun to fall down upon the land, dusk looming like fog in the distance, scattered rays of a bleeding sun scrape across the darkening sky like a fan of knives. Krissy did that night what he does every night: Boot up the computer and log into video games. A few matches of Town of Salem, seeking to lie and deceive the other players in order to lynch his target, or slaughter the Town members, or eradicate the Mafia and Serial Killers in the game. Wit and strategic planning, which never existed: Everyone was bloodthirsty. Yet through all of the cheerful dispositions, all of the laughs provided in communities online, all the smirks and humour made at work, Krissy was never satisfied enough. He was lonely, afraid of going out to meet someone, forever stuck in a vicious cycle of desiring something he lacks the strength to find for himself. Deciding to play some Republic side characters on Star Wars: The Old Republic, coveting the Legendary status for his Acco

I AM SO HAPPY! ♥

The reason why is simple! My Fitness Schedule is working! I created a meticulous database on Microsoft Excel that calculates my total daily intake of Calories (Measured in the kcal format), Carbohydrates, Sugar and Fat. I used conditional formatting to make the results appear red if they exceed the daily intake for a healthy woman. Yes, I am not a woman, but that is the idea: I hope that I can 'trick' my body into losing the ability to eat so much, by striving for less nutritional intake for the average male. That and lots and lots of time on my Confidence Fitness machine, which truly has helped. I started this on Saturday (12/08/2017) and I weighed myself last night. I lost 3.14kg! That also translates to half a stone/7 lbs. I had no idea I'd lose that much in just five days! There are 30/31 days in a month, but for the sake of argument let us assume that all months have 30 days. Which, technically speaking they do. Five days of dieting, measuring nutritional int

The night is always darkest before the Dawn.

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Yesterday was a very strange, fluctuating day for me. The morning was rife with insecurity and sadness, to the point where I felt like crying. Nothing particularly bad had happened to me, no injuries sustained or traumatic event over the weekend was suffered. Emotional turmoil, I could argue it was. Turmoil brought on by my own hypothetical thoughts; these scenarios I was thinking of had not even happened. I scare myself often with my capacity to imagine dread and inflict it upon myself as if it were happening in the moment. The pain of losing a friend, family member, the thought of having horrific accidents come and inflict harm to me, these thoughts come and go all the time and I get frustrated with the lack of strength to realize that these ridiculous notions will never happen. Mostly. There are some however, that are either very likely to be true, or they are. One such example is my 'Bae'... I am not sure what else I could call him without using a name. Three years

♥ A lovely dream~ ♥

So, last night was both nice and a little sad. Why? Sad first. It was a little sad only because wonderful people I interact with have significant others, and I see them with their beloved and smile at their joy, congratulations for finding love. The sadness comes from envy. I do not have that, and I truly wish I did. The thought of everyone else being happy around me except for myself is certainly disheartening to say the least. Yet true to my nature, I would let it slide and focus on the fact that dear friends around me are happily intoxicated, writhing in love's tender grasp. And then it turns nice. It also turns nice because I had a gay dream last night and it made me smile waking up, before I suddenly felt ill for no apparent reason. Morning drowsiness, I would hazard a guess at. The dream began with me playing my games, a few Rainbow Six: Siege matches, some Star Wars: The Old Republic roleplay. I decide to call it quits, a knock on the front door suddenly resonates.

These are the closing days of the Third Era... I mean, this week.

Friday is upon us all, rejoice for hardships of the week are over! I have little cause to celebrate as my life consists of the same routine almost exactly, day in day out. Still, there is no reason not to celebrate: I can spend hours and hours indulging my passions without fear of working the next morning. I await the time that nobody is in the house, those are my favourite moments. I get to explore... Stuff~ ♥ What awaits Krissy? Well. I would say it is high time I watch Frozen. A wonderful lady tells me I should and another lovely lady tells me that it is a good idea to. I was never on-board the hype train when Frozen debuted to the world, nor did I care much for the repeats of 'Let it Go' played on every TV advertisement and referenced in every show currently still active. I do however, adore the Elsanna Ship. I will not lie, it can be rather sexy. Just saying~! ♥ I will also strive to maintain an exercise and diet routine, as I really do suck at keeping to those

English Summer, I prithee, weep until the Fall.

English Summer has begun, as one would expect. A veil of rainfall. Rain and cold winds have been the mornings thus far. And I am enjoying it. Many people associate the rain with negativity, despair and depression, such emotions as those. I feel very differently, I personally love the way the rain falls, how soothing it sounds when the ground is struck by countless drops of water descending from the heavens, or how lovely the scent of soaked grass and trees smell in the rain, the distant fog that is inevitable during a downpour, it almost feels poetic. Perhaps it is a reflection of an inner turmoil? I care little about why I enjoy it so much, I just do. It is an instinct that I relish, to behold the rainfall and be glad that it comes. Especially as my body tends to generate a considerable amount of heat, making -anything- cold pleasant for me to feel! A colleague has told me that he would have sex with me! In a joking way, of course (He is straight & engaged to a lady I

The dawn of a new week: What may yet come.

Monday. Often the most hated day of the week for understandable reason: Your weekend has ended, it may have been a glorious spectacle of friends gathered around a club, or spending sweet time with your significant other, then work demands your presence and there you are back to droning on at whatever job one may find themselves working. I myself do not hate Mondays so much. Tuesdays I despise, and I will conquer this fiend tomorrow. How has this week started? Rather regularly, I would say. Entered my Laboratory, switched on all of my testing apparatus, filed paperwork, inputted into a few databases and that is about the highlight of it, spent the day alone as my Assistant-In-Training was not with me today. A vast improvement compared to my previous Assistant. He really did put the 'Ass' in Assistant and not in a good way. He was the Boss' nephew so he abused that privilege immensely. In the two years of working there he must have achieved a collective total of one wee

Furries! Furries everywhere! ♥

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I cannot speak for everyone I know, but personally I enjoy Furry stuff, was not always like that of course there was a past time where I thought it was weird and a bit stupid. That was my not-so-wise younger self, now though? Now I rather enjoy the Furry Fandom and some of the ADORABLE artwork it can bring to the Internet. I am currently in the extremely early stage & process of developing, designing and then eventually paying an Artist to Commission my character. Let's go over what this may entail (No pun intended, I swear. ♥) shall we? Name: Morticia Amaranth. Gender: Futanari. Race: Snake. Age: WIP. Scale colour: Black & Grey. Scalera/Eye colour: White/Vibrant Yellow. Morticia will be a Sorceress kind of character, often studying spells and delving into the Magical Arts. My previously mentioned Bae is wanting to Commission a Goth Furry OC, so that will coincide wonderfully as Morticia here will be very Gothic in appearance. Lots of purple clothing and alternat

That moment when you have naughty thoughts... [NSFW]

This was not exactly the approach I had in mind when I made this blog, but, who am I to squander my mind and where it leads me? After a lovely discussion with a lovely lady, I've decided to talk about private stuff. Sex, relationships, what is considered an ideal partner, so on so forth. Do I have one? Somewhat. It is a little strange, though there is a kindred feeling for him, and I would hope there is one for me too, he is certainly sweet to me when we are not playfully sexting. We however have never voice called, I do not know how he sounds, nor does he know how I sound or even look. I'm afraid that if I did show myself to him, he would be disappointed because I am far from appealing to the eye. I should give us a little more credit however, in Roleplaying communities we tend to play couples frequently, sometimes married, sometimes in open relationships, though always committed to one another deep down, and almost always extremely kinky~ ♥ However! In my past there h

Hello Internet~!

I am very new to this blog stuff, so do forgive me for any blemishes you may discover on your journey into the strange and often confusing mind of harmless me. :3 Greetings, earthlings! I go by many names online. Fluffles. Krissy, those two are my favourite ones, however you may call me whatever you please! This blog is designed mostly as a means for me to express what I cannot in the Real World, either through fear, anxiety, or simply awkward shyness. Then again, I suppose that is the purpose of a blog, no? Do correct me on that one! What am I willing to share with the World Wide Web? I am 22 years of age, a bi-curious/bisexual boy born and raised in the United Kingdom, with a lack of social awareness which makes interactions with fellow organic lifeforms very troublesome for me. Beyond the difficulties of life I try my best to see the bright side in everything, often a habit is to achieve that easily yet find it impossible to do the same to myself. ♥ I have a penchant for