Land of Cuddles and Snuggles~! ♥ (Mostly)

So, last night was both nice and a little sad. Why? Sad first. It was a little sad only because wonderful people I interact with have significant others, and I see them with their beloved and smile at their joy, congratulations for finding love. The sadness comes from envy. I do not have that, and I truly wish I did. The thought of everyone else being happy around me except for myself is certainly disheartening to say the least. Yet true to my nature, I would let it slide and focus on the fact that dear friends around me are happily intoxicated, writhing in love's tender grasp. And then it turns nice. It also turns nice because I had a gay dream last night and it made me smile waking up, before I suddenly felt ill for no apparent reason. Morning drowsiness, I would hazard a guess at. The dream began with me playing my games, a few Rainbow Six: Siege matches, some Star Wars: The Old Republic roleplay. I decide to call it quits, a knock on the front door suddenly resonates....

This was not exactly the approach I had in mind when I made this blog, but, who am I to squander my mind and where it leads me? After a lovely discussion with a lovely lady, I've decided to talk about private stuff. Sex, relationships, what is considered an ideal partner, so on so forth. Do I have one? Somewhat. It is a little strange, though there is a kindred feeling for him, and I would hope there is one for me too, he is certainly sweet to me when we are not playfully sexting. We however have never voice called, I do not know how he sounds, nor does he know how I sound or even look. I'm afraid that if I did show myself to him, he would be disappointed because I am far from appealing to the eye. I should give us a little more credit however, in Roleplaying communities we tend to play couples frequently, sometimes married, sometimes in open relationships, though always committed to one another deep down, and almost always extremely kinky~ ♥ However! In my past there h...